So I slept until 2:30 today. I kept waking up and feeling all fuzzy and weird so I would go back to sleep. I have a headache. I guess its some kinda holiday mega hangover. ANYWAY With all that sleeping I had some CRAZY ASS DREAMS.

 

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Tags: dreams

I had lots of really vivid, crazyass dreams last night, but I can't really remember all of them.

I dreamed I was at some kind of camp, and I helped stage a coup. We ran in the forest at night (it looked a little like the area around the duck pond) and killed the people running the camp. Several of us were picked up in the dark by a man in a truck, and I sat shotgun while he drove us away, and I looked at my face in the rearview mirror. I thought that if I tried hard enough, I could change how I looked. I closed my eyes and tried to change my skin and hair but got nowhere. Finally, I looked up into the mirror and told myself that I could do the trick I do with black and white photos of myself sometimes -- if you look at the whites of my eyes and pretend they are irises, you can fool yourself into thinking I have Bis-eyes.

So I did that, and instantly, they were changed. And I was immensely pleased.

(I think this relates to my belief that just wanting things a lot doesn't make them happen. But if you happen to know special tricks, you can make things happen, even if they don't really make sense. LOL)
After the coup, several years later, I guess, many of us were living in a city. The camp had had a princess in it, and I found her on the street, riding a thin, white horse in the rain. Its mane trailed on the wet concrete. I recognized her and waved to her, and I followed her into a hat shop with bright pink walls.

In another dream, I was running by myself at night through different woods, with tall, thin trees all crowded together. I had a large, silver flashlight in each hand. Like this, kind of. Almost exactly like that.

I heard other people walking through the forest, and I didn't want to be found. I hid by some blankets piled up next to a big fence, the kind with plastic sheets across the poles which give it shape. I crossed my arms over my chest and turned off the flashlights, but as the people got closer, I realized I had not turned off one of them.

I flicked it off then but it was too late, and the people got closer. It was Erin and Syd, I think. They found me and dragged me off somewhere else, somewhere that was too bright. And I wanted to get away. I wasn't myself -- I mean, I was something else. I was me, but some kind of monster, I guess. And I didn't recognize Erin and Syd. (It was only after I woke up that I realized who they were.)

I tried to make loud noises to scare them so they'd leave me be, but I couldn't get any sounds out. Just deep wheezing. So I tried to hit Syd with one of my flashlights, but I couldn't hardly move with any force at all. I didn't give up, though, and I kept fighting. The only thing I could get out was three words in that deep, wheezing voice, and there were huge spaces between the words because it took so much to say even just that: "WHY...YOU...HERE...WHY...YOU...HERE." Just over and over again.

I also dreamed something about an alien, but I can't seem to put it together anymore.

And that's all I remember.

Tags: dreams

Title: Lace and Awkwardness.
Series: Steampunk Communism Collaboration
Characters: Frances, Howell, Molly
Genre: Western? check. alternate-universe? check.
Rating: G. No, cross-dressing doesn't require PG. Grow up.
Notes: I blame lameep. Just.... yeah. I thought this was lost, but apparently LJ saved it. VIVA MOTHERLAND.

( He was pretty sure that ribs were never meant to do that. )

Tags: spc: frances, spc: howell, spc: molly
Current Location: 87106
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: "Hot Summer Night" - Meat Loaf

Registered: Life Drawing I, Drawing II, Logic & Critical Thinking. Waitlisted: Western Civ I, Bio for Non-Majors (whichever I can get into first).

I did the end of the year meme last year so here it is again this year:

( WALL OF TEXT )

1. Met up with the delightful ichbinkelsey as she was traveling through bound for eastward climes. Thank you for putting up with my social awkwardness, Kelsey! I never know what is the appropriate level of eye contact for casual conversation, do you guys find that as well? I either end up boring a hole into the back of the poor person's head or staring at the ceiling the whole time.

2. I am now a community college student! EXCITING. My dad could not believe the cost of tuition. I tried to explain to him that $500 was not going to pay all of my school expenses next semester and he did not believe me.

3. Today was my last day of work! For a month. I am taking a leave of absence and going to Texas where I will either console or congratulate my little brother who is finding out about his non-/admission to Yale tomorrow. I wish I could hang out with him tonight and we could each smoke a pack of cigarettes and venture nervous speculations about our futures.

4. Today I worked from 6 am to 9:30 pm. Why did I do that. I really don't even.

5. I am totally done with Christmas shopping, even though I kind of despise myself for giving into the materialistic urges of blah blah etc. I bought my mom a spoon because she hates everything so she may as well hate something she collects.

6. I lied about my weight on my new drivers' license. (I'm not going to get arrested for shaving 15 pounds off, right?) I feel weird about how I automatically deducted from the actual number when the girl at the DMV asked. I want to erase that kind of behavior in myself. On the other hand I became an organ donor. Maybe that tips the scales of my body image slightly more in favor of "healthy"?

7. Oyasumi Punpun is the best comic I've read in a loooong while.

8. I can't think of number eight because I am tired

9. Tomorrow I go register for classes (technically not the past month but w/e) and it's going to be a struggle, UTD is being super douchey about releasing my official transcript. I am even paying them money to overnight it except I have to email (not call, email) 3 different people to set up arrangements for overnighting it. It has been over a week since I began this process. A WEEK IS NOT OVERNIGHT.

10. I am going to dye my hair with Kool Aid. And then I will post photos. Probably. Also contemplating getting second lobe piercings for myself for Christmas... Probably a waste of money but I've been wanting them for a while and I suspect they will heal more easily than a brow piercing which I am still ambivalent about. I might wax my brows into princess brows too depending on how much drink gets poured into me in order to make me think that would be a good idea. I'd look even angrier all the time! It would be great!